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Have finally gotten my new laptop and I love it so far. His name is Gabriel and I really hope that doesn't mean he'll start fucking with my head for the hell of it. Which is why I originally tried to name him Cas but it wasn't sticking so Gabriel it is. I'm basically settled in I just need to move over my ridiculously large iTunes library along with my old word docs and then I'm set. *dances*

M'kay, it ridiculously late right now so I'm going to get to bed. Have to watch the kids group at my parents church tomorrow. *glaces at clock* Well, more like today. Bah. I hope it isn't going to be like last week so I can some more knitting done. Hm. Maybe I can distract them with yarn in between to Jesus bits? It worked in the beginning at least...

"I once had this dream that there was this set of special bombs hidden all over the world. The bombs looked like hinged glass balls with intricate whirring mechanisms inside. Some were dangerous, some were good, all of them changed the universe in different ways. There was one, the perfect bomb, the one everyone searched for: the Love Bomb.

In the dream someone had found one of the bombs. A small group of us gathered on a hill and he showed it to us. It was beautiful; all the gears and spindles inside were different colors, working furiously. "Do you know what this is?" he said and smiled. Then for just a split-second, he opened it, and the world changed.

Huge flowers and trees burst from the ground and opened. Beautiful buildings of grand design shot up along the horizon. Birds that we'd never seen flew into the air, banners and streamers unfurled across the sky which was on fire with color and light. Everything seemed to dance and leap into the air and change color. Tears streamed down our faces as we saw it all, felt it all, as we felt this beautiful music and joy and love filling our lungs like too much air. And the whole world, the entire universe felt it.

When he closed the bomb, we almost tore him apart trying to get it back.

Today, all this purple hoopla, should be about combating all the meanness in the world with a ferocious goodness. What the hell is "different"? We're all fucking different. We're all WILDLY different. Just start loving everyone, because everyone's worthy of love. You put that love out into the sphere and it'll be felt. You open a love bomb." - lily-fox.deviantart.com/journal/35744150/

This is exactly what I feel about everything right now. All the utter shit that has been going down. Why can't we just shut the fuck up about how different is 'wrong' and grow the fuck up and get over ourselves? Because really, all it takes is to sit up, take notice and do something about what's been happening. Really. To not let people get away with being bullies and bigots because society considers them more important then the people that they are bullying.

So, stand the hell up and do something! Because no one deserves to be pushed to the point where they feel that life isn't worth living.

So tired, but I can't get to sleep for the life of me. It's very annoying because in about four or five hours I'm supposed to get up and babysit a three year old and a baby. Luckily, they're generally well behaved most of the time so hopefully that'll be that case this time.

My sleeping schedule is just ridiculously fucked up though. Haven't been able to get to bed at a decent hour for days and I kinda want to kill something. Maybe I can make a deal with a magic entity/god and go on a quest for sleep powder with no nasty side effects? Cause I really wouldn't mind slaying nasty beasts/taking cure of a far off realms problems/teaching the cure to toe fungus if it got me some decent sleep. I'd offer you my first-born but I've watched Labyrinth too many times.

Also, do I just have a face that says "I will totally listen to all your problems and provide sage advice on how to fix them"? Because apparently I do lately. It's probaly what I get for wearing a shirt that offers free hugs... *is baffled* But I routinely get people who sit down at my Starbucks table and after I do the polite bit of saying hi and and asking how they are, they proceed to answer honestly. I really have no idea why. And because I'm crazy I do my best to sort them out. Oy. Never let it be said life is boring. Though I think some of the staff have bets on whether my study sessions are going to turn into therapy sessions...

So I've got a good lead at the local sweet shop which sounds like it'll be perfect if I get it. They need someone from noon to five and I'm pretty sure the manager likes me. Always Knew that me lovely wit and dubious charm would serve me well one day. May also help that I'm good at dealing with screaming kids, which, being a sweet shop they seem to get a lot of. This can only be good for my chances.

There's also the possibility of a lead at Subway, but I really like Sweet Treats better as far as my options go. I mean, who doesn't love chocolate? *shrugs* Really, though, I'm kinda getting to the point that I'll take whoever will hire me. I'll take what I can get because I'm just so bored waiting for my next class to start up. Which reminds me, I need to call and ask what book the prof wants me to get so I can try and find it cheap somewhere... Though considering it's an anatomy class that's probably not too likely.

Also have been looking into Zen and Tao which are very interesting. I kinda don't want to give the books I took out on them back to the library. *sigh* Will just have to put them on my to buy list along with all those other things I'm planning on doing once I have money again. I'm also thinking of picking up tarot just because it looks interesting. Hm. We'll see.

Also have been attempting to read the Bible for the first time despite having claimed to believe in it for the majority of my life. It. doesn't. make. sense. Seriously. Why that hell did God not take Cain's offering but accepted Abel's? I mean, it's not like he said anything about veggies not being worthy sacrifices that I could see. I mean, I know my church attaches significant symbolic type stuff to this concerning Jesus being the sacrificial lamb and such for our sins and that Abel's offering is supposed to signify this, but it was the beginning of the world. I kinda doubt that there was precedence for this yet, ya know? Bah, this is what I get for expecting things to make sense. Still, the creation of the Earth bit was pretty darn cool, I'll give it that.

Am currently very annoyed with myself. Seriously, self? Why didn't you look at your syllabus? Why? Cause now you only have a week to do that huge paper that you haven't touched. Much less thought about. Which makes you kinda dumb. And a little bit panicky.

And then there's that exam that's coming up that you forgot about too. For the same class. *headdesk*

I really should try getting a calendar someday. That way, maybe I'll actually remember things for once. *shrugs and sighs* It's worth a try at least.

*gets back to work*

Really hope that we get a snow day tomorrow, it's looking like a pretty good chance of one though. I could really use one. I'm so tired lately, senior year is starting to get to me. I need more sleep or something is gonna give and it might just be my sanity. Shouldn't have taken so many A.P classes then maybe it would have been easier to stay on top of my other not A.P classes and I wouldn't have tanked them. *sigh* Too late for that now. I'm just gonna have to take the consequences in stride. It's a good thing the college I'm planning on going to doesn't have a required GPA to get in or I'd be completely screwed.

In other news I'm trying to think of a writing challenge for the D.B.C.A for Valentine's to make up for my absence there lately. I'm thinking murder mystery or something along those lines just to keep in line with our usual resistance to conformity. Or I could just put together a bunch of prompts with V-day having to be the common setting...I'll probably do a mix of the two, even though the murder mystery would probably work better in the Ballroom... I'll probably have it all put together by the weekend, sooner if there's that snow day.

Ashe

I really shouldn't be on here. *looks about stealthily* But I am, so, ah well. *shrugs* So, yeah. Man, I'm boring... I come to actually make use of this and now I can't think of anything interesting to say besides the fact that I'm moving and really need get some different icons.

I have waaay too many Zelos for my own good. Stupid girly pretty boy...

Also, I have an urge to actually [i]write[/i] fanfic instead of read it, 'cause, you know what? Tinman is awesome! *huggles Glitch* It's a show that I recorded a while back and didn't get 'round to watching 'till a few days ago and I really wish that I'd gotten 'round to it sooner now. It had great characters, an interesting, if generic, 'Evil Witch Must Be Overthrown' plot (with some twists), the princess character wasn't perfect and unable to do any wrong (in fact she [i]caused[/i] the witch situation) and was like a vaguely steam-punk 'Wizard of Oz'. Which shouldn't be that surprising, considering it's meant to be a modernized version of it. Which it did awesome at.

My one compliant is the ending. It was way too sudden. I mean, sure the huge eclipse thingy was averted and the Witch melted in classic Oz style, but there just wasn't any conflict resolution. It's like a book that ends as soon as the hero figure deals the killing blow and you turn the next page and there's nothing there. Meh. Ah, well. This is what we have fanfic for. To save us from crappy endings! *grins* And for really crazing pairings. *still hasn't quite recovered from the Potter fandom*

So, I think I'm going to have to dump some of my Zelos icons for Glitch because Glitch is just way more adorable. *hugs* And he has a zipper in his head! Now, that's just kinda awesome.

*runs off to get back to packing* Here, have some Zelos.